Monday, August 30, 2010

The pain is slowly easing

A dedication :)

My dear,
It's fair to say that the past few months have been somber and gloomy for me. It has been like living in the dark, as though a big black evil cloud has engulfed me. I have also felt like there has been a piece missing from my heart, and although I wasn't sure what that piece was, I now realize it was the part I gave to you.

Now, slowly, it's as though that piece is being fumbled back into place and I'm starting to see a glimmer of light, just as though someone, somewhere has turned on a light and it's starting to flicker alive.

It's hard for me to explain what the feeling is, all I can say is that when I've been with you lately, the movie I'm watching seems better, the music I'm listening to sounds more alive, even things like doing the dishes is more fun when you're in the room. Everything I've ever done in my life has been better, brighter and more exciting when I've been able to share it with you.

There's no price you can put on love. And I know you just can't make love come back to the way it was: I know it'll come back, if, and when it's ready. But I just want you to know that for every ounce of love you give to me, I will give it back to you a thousand times more.

Let's rewrite our story~

At 2 years and 4 months, i guess.. :p


Thursday, August 26, 2010

I got the list ! even more excited now..hehe
tapi tak tau macam mana nak jalankan, makin lama makin banyak :p
bahagia hati ni sekarang, sekurang-kurangnya sekarang
my life is wonderful as always~

all i hear is bla..bla..bla..

Wednesday, August 25, 2010


somewhat, i'm kinda excited !
yes, en.Syafiq..come along with me.
catch me if i ever fall, i'll do the same too.
don't let them touch us. don't won't get us

they're just flies.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

buat apa di cerita..

i'm the luckiest..
I won the first place.

Sorry losers, don't make another sad drama. :)
Goodbye social life....~

I have a life to live ahead.

I'm boring, I know..You don't have to tell..

go away, lalat.

The date.

I hope to get the date soon..
I don't want to do everything last minute~

Friday, August 20, 2010

Saya Mahu

Saya dah tahu apa nak dihadiahkan kepada diri sendiri...

Lagi satu kamera digital ! :p

Sebenarnya, saya dah ada dua..abah yang belikan..Olympus semi-pro dan Pentax DSLR..bukan tak bersyukur, tapi saya rasakan mereka sudah tua.. :p tidaklah, saya hanya mahu menambah koleksi~
Saya belum memiliki kamera yang kecil (sekadar alasan..) sebab selalu curi kakak punya sony..huhu. Tak mahu dia menjeling-jeling lagi tatkala saya membuka almarinya untuk mengambil kamera tersebut..ciri-ciri yang diutamakan, mestilah WIDE LENS!

Saya sedang berkira-kira untuk memiliki salah 'seorang' dari mereka :

Olympus Mju 9000

Panasonic Lumix DMC ZS1

Maybe another compact? hehe
Nikon CoolPix L100

Saya tidak memilih jenama, atau setia kepada satu jenama sahaja..mahu cuba semua. Sekarang semuanya canggih-canggih dan bagus belaka. Rambang matalah kalau pergi ke kedai ! Saya akan cuba semua sehingga puas hati, huhu...Walau apa pun, saya masih sayangkan kedua-dua kekasih saya, Olympus n Pentax..korang akan ada seorang lagi kawan! cuma, saya dah malas nak bawa DSLR..nanti bila mood saya dah datang, akan kumpul duit untuk beli lens dslr pula ye~

Handphone..?? kemudian saja~

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

a lil' bit of everything

My dearest Iefiz will fly to UK soon..
I will miss him so much
and our 'puaka' group will be incomplete :(
don't worry sayang, we won't replace you with anybody else
you still got dates with us!
We Love You..~

My Iefiz

The Puakas..haha

Kawan Sampai Mati !


The Same Old Brand New Place

It's good to be back, just that I'm still working out with the work my boss assigned me.
It's a lil' bit different, but I can do it..! I can always learn..

When I came in to the office this morning,
I was told by Siti that Christina is, I go to her room..
there she is, with Illy ! her third beautiful girl..
It's good to see the familiar face.
Ileana Matin Shauki is so adorable. She smiled at me~
I feel a bit better

Hope I won't get sick, urgh...
Silalah jangan demam.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Stop it

Stop living the memories..

Just let it go~

Sunday, August 15, 2010

love the way you lie.

i kinda like this version.
i usually listen to cover, just wanna listen to variety version
but eminem's rapping is better, got that intense in his voice to deliver the lyrics well..
I love the official video though, it's great.

I can't tell you what it really is..I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight
While I can fight as long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight high of a love
Drunk from the hate .it's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate and right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me..She fucking hates me And I love it

Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again

It's so insane cause when it's going good
It's going great I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag She's Lois Lane

But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap

Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

You ever love somebody so much? You can barely breathe
When you're with them you meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills used to get 'em

Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face spewing venom
And these words when you spit 'em
You push pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em throw 'em down
Pin 'em so lost in the moments

When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best to go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is's a different day
Sound like broken records playin' over

But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window..guess that's why they call it window pane

Now I know we said things
Did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded

Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems

Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault..look me in the eyeball

Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies

I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Friday, August 13, 2010

finally !

the day has come..
my last day working here in YCC.
i'm so happy~~!

bye bye everybody..
thanks for the good memories
and let the bad passed..

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

road to recovery.

If you try to reach inside of your heart

you can find forgiveness, or at least the start
And from that place where you can forgive
is where hope, and love, also thrive and live

And with each step that you try to take

and with that chance that your heart might break
comes so much happiness, and so much strength
which alone can carry you a fantastic length

For hate and anger will not get you there

and though you say that you just don't care
you can EASILY avoid the pain on which hate feeds
the kind of hurt that no one needs

Just make the move, take that first stride

let go of the thing known as "Foolish Pride"
maybe then you can start to repair the past
into something strong, that will mend, and last!

Monday, August 9, 2010


i have to stay in this office until end of this week..
it that a good thing ? 
i don't know
as bad as they want me to stay, i've chose my own path..
i can't wait for my boss to come back from US..
i want to start my new job A.S.A.P...

Friday, August 6, 2010


Sewaktu di sekolah, saya tidak gemar atau tiada rasa ingin bercinta. Sebab saya tak suka tengok kawan-kawan bersedih bila mereka bergaduh dengan boyfriend/girlfriend mereka. Dan saya tidak pernah percaya pada cinta pandang pertama. Cinta pertama tidak akan kekal, itu yang saya fikir..Waktu di sekolah dulu, saya hidup dengan riang dan gembira. Saya merempit setiap hari..saya ke taman permainan..saya ke gua Kek Look Tong..saya ada kawan-kawan...umur 20 tahun baru rasa terbuka hati. Itu pun dengan tiada keyakinan langsung, tapi dengan positifnya saya berfikir, mungkin saya boleh belajar untuk menerima. Tapi bila ianya dipermain-mainkan, saya berjanji pada diri..cukuplah sekadar jadi teman dia yang paling lama..sebab dia cakap selalu dipermainkan perempuan..Padanlah muka kau. Jadi, pada ulangtahun pertama kami, saya minta untuk putus..cukuplah setakat di situ. Saya pergi tanpa sebarang rasa sedih. Pensyarah saya, En. Hishamudin Rais pernah berkata, perkara paling utama dalam setiap filem, walaupun apa pun genre nya..ianya tak akan lari dari cinta. Kerana manusia tidak boleh hidup tanpa cinta. Cinta menjadi perkara utama dalam hidup seharian. Satu harapan saya sejak kecil, saya mahu jadi cinta pertama seseorang, dan seseorang itu cinta pertama saya. Tapi semua itu tidak berlaku..Saya masih belum faham. Banyak yang perlu saya belajar..

saya hanya mengharapkan kejujuran.

wish i could..

- berhenti makan skittles, telur dinosour, twinkles, dan segala-galanya yang manis. (the good thing is i started to drink plain water more vanilla coke everyday)

- berhenti makan secara mewah setiap hari, kalau dah hari-hari makan di pavilion, the curve, dan lain-lain memang pokailah.. :p breakfast di Phileo, makan tengahari di Universiti Malaya (murah sikit!) dan dinner di Gold Chili, Pavi, Mid, Sunway, Curve..(aiyo, sebelum ni saya hanya makan tengahari atau malam sahaja woo..)

- i hope that people around won't make me mad or sad..coz i'll use all my money to buy 'the happy foods'!

- wish i could stop...but i loveeeeee......................................